just one question that keeps me awake, soul searching for the answer. An answer that I should already know, the answer I shouldn't have to look for, because the question should be non-existent. Yet again and again I ask away,hoping for a glimpse of the truth that will bring me back to sanity again, a way out. somehow trying to change the question prodding at my conscience every night. But there is no changing reality.
The question is; "Did I give God everything today?".
What am I doing with my heart? Am I really serving God like I should be? Or am I simply following random whims of emotion that changes my mind every couple of minutes?
Am I letting the things that I want to do override what God is telling me to do? I think about my day, every single night I look behind and am dissatisfied with myself, completely disgusted with all of the demons whispering in my ear that I let myself listen too. I say I'm trying my best, but could I be trying harder?
Sometimes during the day, I forget why I even strive to be good.
What is so important to me that I could forget my creator?
All that I can do is try my best to remember him tomorrow.
So that I can go to sleep at night, knowing that I have at least tried to carry out my fathers will.
For now I will sleep, and pray that tomorrow night,
I will sleep peacefully, knowing my Daddy is proud.
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